bidding adeu...

with every dawn a day passes by,
with evry moment a memory goes thy,
life is so strange that memories make me
laugh and cry......
as a year is passing by
stepping into a new year wid all new hopes and wishes
may god bless all with peace,laughter and happiness....
may god bless all wd his love and affection....

saying goodbye to this year will be difficult for me because this yr i lost my love, gained my parents unconditioned love like i never got...got some real gud friends,lost faith in this industry(media)...saw death and life so closely, understood what love, courtesy,friendship,laughter,happiness, joy ,sorrow is all about...this year has been phenomenal in ma growth of life...this year changed my views and....ma popular statement ...."ma percerption about life"
if i say thanku then those who r close to me will say m doing formality but i really want u to knoe hw u changed my life...so here it goes....

pinkydi,hitler jiju:- di i thot everyones changed with time...but u stood by me when i needed support so badly that u might not even know..u pulled me up...my life was in your hands and u and jiju saved it ...i will always be thankful to you...not because what you did but u restored my faith in relationships and love...u made ma bilief come true dat childhud relationships do matter...as we grow in life we should not forget our memories...i love u thanku sooo much for being deir...i love you both and do pardon me if i dont call u...coz isd ka bill bahut ata hai....

piu:-people might wonder how such a small girl can change ma perspective of life...whenever i look at her it makes me think where innocence, turth and happiness have gone from our lives and one thing i envy her toys collection..hahhaa...but i really love u ...u might not even understand wat m speaking but isnt life is like wat u say..."nice???...very niishhh"

ashwin:- you knoe ur plaace in my life ..u hav stud by me thru thik and thin....ur the sweetest guy dat i hav ever come across in my life...ur jokes,long fone talks, ihm stories,lifes theories,all are embeded in ma heart and i assure you we will always be best of frenz.....as we are for more than 3 yrs...thanku for standing my non sensical jokes,my anger and ma over gyaan dat i give for free...whenever possible....

mom and dad:- ur the best....the way u have shaped me i love you for that..i have not seen any couple like u..i love u...u simply are the best!!!!!!love u suuuuu much

vrush:- u remember when the nurses in the hospital used tu say...is she ur sister and i used tu say no ma fren..then they used to say treasure this friendship...bcoz its very rare tu find....we always consult each other....me toh always coz i think u r more mature than me...and i appreciate the way u have moulded me .....thanku....ye dosti ham nahi todenge...

vd:- god..u r a phenomenon urself...people admire u, respect u...but i love you ....for the way u are, u r the best and simply the cutest and i really dont mind wen u come late coz talkin tu u is such a relief...ur the best coz vd has tu be the best...u came so late in ma life but u understand me and ma situation wdout even telling you...i hope our frenship will see dawn everyday...and wish u luck for xat...but dont go to america i will missu den.....

renin ,arco, ashwin(motu), ma old roomies, ma group of frenz...all those people in ambarnath who helped me...thanku soo much for being there...u people exhibit frenship,care ,love and qualities dat i admire but possibly i dont have...

silence:take me away

Life is a mystery and finding answers to its questions is tad difficult ...atleast for me..it is surely difficult.Every day when i wake up i start my day with a new hope..hope of doing something more fulfilling than yesterday, doing something fruitful...but my hopes succumb to failure and at the end of the day i m quarantined. my prognosis leaves me with the answer that i should not hope...because my hopes never live to see the dawn.still i dont stop hoping for better things in life because the day i stop thinking i will not exist...
i want to live like a free bird who can fly from one destination to another without waiting for a company..i want to live a life where i dont want any interference..i want to fly..fly so that no one can ever catch me and bind me in a bond...i know i am being selfish..but cant help..i want to live with my parents and my friends...i dont want to live like a prisoner which i feel i am...i dont want to think what future beholds...how my career shapes up..what i become in life..i want to stop thinking...stop imagining my future...because in the context of thinking my future i am ruining my present...i dont want to be bound by someone...i dont want to be answerable for my actions...i want to be set free...set free from this jungle of emtions...my runnel of emotions is too complicated for anyone to understand thus i pray - silence:take me away.....take me away to a world where their is peace and calmness...where there is no religion no cast no creed..no materialism no cruelty where only humanity exists where there is no compulsion of society only self rules exist...my conditions of living are rare in existence so my only hope is silence:........

merry xmass....

jingle bell...jingle bell ....and here comes the santa with so many gifts for children.christmas is the celebration of birth of lord Jesus....celebration of love and unity amongst us..it is not necessary that you have to be a christian to celebrate the festival...it lies in our heart whether we wish to celebrate it or not.

today let it be any fest the main thing that has cropped up is materialism...its the time for shopkeepers to make money..santa caps,stockings,bells,trees,new clothes and so on...it is not only the christians who are indulging as part of their fest but every youth wants to participate in the festivities.i wont cal it globalisation but i would say it is the broadminded thinking of ours that has led us to celebrate all the fests with same enthusiasm and happiness.everyone wants to get a cap or stocking, toys and gifts...why??????the question can not be answered by a single person but i think it is a good sign for everyone...shopkeepers are earning, people are buying and being happy....so wats wrong in dat????still their are some sections in this society who are against these indulgence but i believe we should come together and our unity should set an example for others who think religion bars the interaction of social beings... occasions come and go..they are meant to bring joy and happiness,peace and love its the celebration of feelings and not religious division.....

Black Saturday

Black is the colour of hatred

why then blue turned black

why it murdered the innocent souls,

why it crushed dreams and homes,

The magnificent creation of God

destroyed the superior presence of himself

a fight between two sides of Himself...

the mighty nature won,but the love it aroused

amongst the citizens of this world

love and sympathy took its toll

denied every attack on humanity's soul

every answer to angst and disaster was love altogether

pain withered away at last happiness danced its way....

Dikhayi diye ho....

i should have written this earlier....but got delayed anyways....the verdict by the high court on the Jessica Lal case has enligthened the hopes for others who are seeking justice. this judgement has only raised the bar of our judiciary concluding that everything is not gone for a common man...their is still hope...we have moved above bureaucracy it is only the court which continues to gain respect and admiration...because for a common man justice and transperancy in the system has died its death.its the COURT which keeps the hopes alive..and i hope that as Priyadarshini Mattoo case and Jesica's case came to a conclusion Nitish Katara's case will also see the light. the verdict may come late...but i again agree with my statement which i had said before...in India justice delayed is justice delivered....bcoz the candle of hope is burning in our hearts.....

Kitabein bahut si..padhi hogi tumne!!!!

In dis shoppaholic era...wy i said so..bcoz everytime i go out i can see atleast 50 people buying something or other from da streets...shops and malls....so...in Mumbai itself we come across people who daily buy something or other and dose who especially buy stuffs which r just for making oneself happy are the biggest shopahlics....for example the day my roomie gets her salary she directly heads to shoppers stop or Fab India...half of her salary...whoosh....dis is da modern India....wid dis growing trend of shopping deir r people whu undertake specific shopping like...one day allocated tu buk shoping...anoder for shirts...some oder day for towels and bed sheets...i mean deir r endless days of shopping.....
now my focus are the ones who love book shopping....from fort to crosswords....lemme tell u ....their r many types of buyers....
1. dose who think they r the baap of all readers....dey specifically knoe which buk dey want however hard da seller may try tu change his mind ..he wont hez da adamant soul.."nahi...mujhe wahi chahiye..."and he will buy the buk at ne cost...
2.these buyers are tad difficult for the seller...they will peep into each and every buk...if they like the cover.."ohh....wat a buk..."and den da bargaining begins....
3.anoder sect of buyers like ME...who just want tu read...and are out of buks ..so dey go...just turn on da last page read da story in short and if dey like it..."haan bhaiya ye de do...." and bargaining..haha the seller is tuu smart...madam dis buk is da best...it might be the beast...but none of the one whoz selling or buying knoes wat is inside da buk!!!
4.these type of buk shopers are the ones who r travellling and happen tu see a new bukstall...so dey go deir see thru the entire collection ..ask about hundred question den say..."abhi nahi...kal lekar jaunga..." and dat tomorrow never comes.
5.this is the last type dat i hav come across...dey will bargain and da cost for whichever buk goes down they will jump on dat...dey mmight not even knoe da name of da buk..."arey tujhe pata hai...maine saste me buk kharida..."
some might agree or disagree wid me..but these are my experience while buk shopping at various places of mumbai....

ye paal yaad ayenge...

college fest...da moment we hear dat fests r approaching us..our lives fill wid excitement, happiness and we wonder how this year we will celebrate our fest...indeed fests bring wid themselves joy and a mood to celebrate the occsion of being a part of dat college...afterall college days are the most wonderful days of a students life...independence,freedom,puppy love, new frenz who promise tu b deir till da end , canteen fud,bunking lectures....and so much more...a collegian undergoes thru so much emotional ups and downs dat one entire movie can be made on them....
this year i celebrated ESTRO....somaiya's bmm festival...wd ma frenz and seniors....as fests are a reason of celebration..wearing new sarees...showing off da latest thing dat we purchased for the occasion...i wont be wrong if i say dat nearly 95% of the female population had done special shopping only for this occassion.......gossiping and appreaciating the documentaries and movies....but their is anoder aspect of a fest....
how a fest becomes a success....a big question indeed...a fest is a success wen deir is work force..deir r pople who r committed tu the purpose of making the event a huge success....but alas i saw a workforce who were ready tu pull each other down...might b i was also a part of this...but a fest not only has happy moments but its other side is tuu dark...groupism killing the mood of those people who wish tu work, domination becoming a happening thinggy..i mean da one who dominates becomes da superior....lack of communication...everything going on the wrong direction..but at the end only one thing lies..hope...hope of succes...hope of making da event a worth tu be remembered one...a memory dat one wishes tu cherish after leaving da college....may be bmmittes wont aprreciate dis post of mine...but i was wondering...is dis da way fests r celebrated or is dis da future of our generation becoz every time..... in da last three years dat i hav spent in dis college i always came across one thing very biterrly dat is- groupism...which kills da emotion of one but yes rises another's collar.....i dont knoe...wat will happen next year...but i hope the spirit of dis fest dosnt get detached from its actual motto...a motto bcoz of which da fest came in da scenario...tu celebrate the reason of being a BMMITTE....of somaiya college...tu celebrate in unision da event which is solely ours...i hope in the future our fest lives wat it means...ESTRO...which means...spirit